Me, Myself & Us

Questions With No Answers

2011-10-02T01:49:00.006-06:00

"Look to the sky. The sky is the answer."I was getting in my car after having gone to the 11 p.m. showing of "Donnie Darko" at the Guild when I saw a man walking haphazardly across Central Ave. This being Saturday night (or technically now Sunday morning) such a sight isn't all that unusual. Hearing him yelling out, (or perhaps more of a loud warbling), those sentences while waving one arm up

Surreal Barely Describes It

2011-06-09T18:40:00.005-06:00

On Thursday, June 2nd, I participated in my very first movie shoot. It's one of those things that on one level I've always fantasized about but in the realm of reality truly never thought I would partake in. Kinda up there with meeting a famous movie star. You always WISH and dream of that moment but when that moment actually occurs you're still sorta left with the bizarre thought of, "Did

A Month of Activism

2011-03-21T14:27:00.009-06:00

I turn 41 tomorrow. I tend to view the entire month of March as one big birthday celebration so that if the actual day of my birthday has me preoccupied with things "unbirthday-like" then I needn't feel bummed. Some people insist that if they don't get a birthday greeting on their day then obviously people have forgotten. Too constricting if you ask me and doesn't allow for the occasional flub

Finding a Voice

2011-02-24T21:47:00.005-07:00

I've photographed more political rally's, parades, protests, etc. than I've been a part of. I used to do a much better job of keeping my views separate from my photography business. I've been warned many times over lately that I need to "be careful" and "watch what I say." I'm perfectly aware that what I post online is public knowledge and as I told someone recently, if someone out there can't

Reconfiguring Life

2011-02-10T15:35:00.007-07:00

There's a moment in the movie "Girl with a Pearl Earring" in which Johannes Vermeer looks over at the maid Griet and see's "it"; the composition, the painting and we the audience see this thru his eyes. We see that moment of realisation when we realise we have it.Spark. It's been missing from my inner creativity banks for some time now and in my usual stubbornness I've fought the notion that

Ready or Not

2011-01-04T22:24:00.005-07:00

All it takes is one minute. 11:59 p.m. to 12 a.m and suddenly we're in a new year. Two Thousand and Eleven.In two and 1/2 months I'll be 41 and I'm finding myself feeling the same dread I felt when I was nearing 31. The same "deer-in-the-headlights" frozen sensation wondering that if I turn back now I can make it back across the other side of 40 before the wall gets sealed-up.It's not a fear

Watching As They Grow Old

2010-12-26T18:47:00.009-07:00

She sat on the couch, body tense. "I've been grounded," she said as tears welled-up in her eyes."Grounded?" I asked. How in the world does a nun get grounded?It was Monday afternoon, the week of Christmas, and I'd gone over to visit my Aunt Teresita, a nun with the Dominican order and pretty much the only aunt I have ever had much contact with. She has always been in my life in one form or

It's Simple Really

2010-12-21T00:51:00.004-07:00

From November thru New Years I'm infamous for my uber-extreme moodiness. The holidays have always been a difficult time for me, some years better while some years are worse. Being unemployed makes this year quite possibly one of the Top 5 worst holidays of my life. Being single and unemployed with unemployment benefits having expired makes this a contender for 2003...that being my first

ILL.5

2010-11-12T23:36:00.005-07:00

Picture this scene:You've just left the theatre after seeing the movie "Inception." You get in your car, turn the key but don't start the car which of course turns on the interior dash info lights and as you're pulling the seat buckle across to your chest you glance at the dash and instead of where the usual tripometer mileage should of been is the following display: "ILL.5" Now, the regular

Slide

2010-10-26T20:40:00.002-06:00

Even on a day like this when you're crawling on the floorReaching for the phone to ring anyone who knows you anymoreIt's all right to make mistakes, you're only humanInside everybody's hiding somethingStaring at the same four walls, have you tried to help yourselfThe rings around your eyes they don't hide, that you need to get some restIt's all right to make mistakes you're only humanInside

Death

2010-08-26T20:01:00.012-06:00

Such a short word with so many meanings. We have the basic "Western" civilisation definition of Death: "the act of dying; the end of life;the total and permanent cessation of all the vital functions of an organism." Buddhist view of Death: "death is not the end of life, it is merely the end of the body we inhabit in this life,.."and then from those allegorically illustrated

Apologies, Health and Family

2010-08-13T21:22:00.005-06:00

A week ago I received a phone call from the UNM rehab clinic asking if I "still wanted the compression stockings that have been approved to treat your lymphedema since your coverage expires on the 10th."Now, imagine this scenario. You've left numerous messages with your primary trying to find out why the rehab clinic keeps saying they aren't getting the proper prescription from the primary.

The Girl Who Played with Fire

2010-08-06T01:05:00.008-06:00

As a woman who comes from a family with past sex abuses, not to mention was a victim herself as a child, many are shocked to discover that I do not shy away from movies in which there are scenes or the plot centers around sex abuse.I find myself intrigued by such stories, searching perhaps to understand the minds of the perpetrator(s) and the victim's and how they deal or don't deal with the

You'll Not Be Forgotten

2010-07-09T22:44:00.004-06:00

In the past couple of days I've gotten to thinking about what I had written here in regard to talking about moving back to Denver and began to worry (as I do all too often anyway) about how this might be getting interpreted by the friendships I have developed here in the Land of Manana.I tend to overanalyse pretty much everything I say and do, worrying about how I appear to others, worrying about

The Come Down

2010-07-07T08:52:00.008-06:00

Today is Wednesday. I've been back in New Mexico for two full days and three nights. Feels like a week. A week of loneliness and isolation.This is far too typical of what I go through every time I go on a vacation. For a few out of the norm days I am surrounded by activity, friends, new and/or familiar sites just not seen in a while. My soul gets fed by hugs and laughter while filling in the

Finding Home

2010-07-03T11:38:00.006-06:00

Sitting at the dining table waiting for Nichelle to show-up while Pam and Dejo take in the Tour de France "prologue." Can't say I've ever gotten into watching this event but it does make me miss owning a bike, feeling the wind whoosh across my face cooling me off. Day three of my vacation here in Colorado, staying in Castle Rock w/ Pam and Dejo. For those not familiar with Colorado, Castle Rock

Exhausted

2010-06-01T22:04:00.002-06:00

A week ago I was promoted to be a Crew Leader Assistant. This promotion is in wording only as I'm getting no increase in pay. I took it with the hope that it'll keep me working on this Census gig longer as we all know how desperately I need the money.This added responsibility has, naturally, been a mixed blessing. I appreciate the confidence my Crew Leader has in me but the discovery that

Rewarding in Peculiar Ways

2010-05-23T23:58:00.007-06:00

It's been a month now working for the United States government. As a Census worker I knew I'd be working in my neighbourhood but I kinda wish I would get some addresses that were farther than a mere four block radius. But then I'm the one reaching into the pile of binders and for some reason getting these results. I know of others in my group who are working neighourhoods not in their backyard

Swept Off My Feet

2010-05-13T21:17:00.020-06:00

Oyyyeeeeee. Head ohh please stop spinning and swimming in swirls. PUHLLEEZE!Getting in the car I wondered if I was really in any shape whatsoever to be driving a motorized vehicle across town. But what was I to do? I wanted. No I needed to get home to spill all it out, empty my head. Though something tells me my head will still be overflowing. So I drove home as quickly as I could though I

An Education

2010-05-04T20:32:00.007-06:00

Feet and legs are killing me tonight...actually I think it's the damn knees that hurt more but they're all connected so not that such a distinction matters much. Hopefully though as the days go by my appendages will get stronger and once I finally get those compression stockings that should kick my body or specifically my lymph nodes into working again. I've finally accepted the fact that I

Some Talents Aren't Obvious

2010-04-12T18:41:00.006-06:00

Saturday night was the final straw...or perhaps the final hair snag would be more appropriate. Every winter I let my hair grow out a bit, ear protection and all that. This winter though I'd let the beast get way out of hand, primarily because I'm so flippin' poor that the idea of spending even Great Clips prices sent my body into convulsions, so I played the "let's ignore the big old white

Denial. The Flavor of Society

2010-04-01T21:11:00.010-06:00

There's been a lot of coverage of late about teenagers killing themselves after they were either physically bullied or bullied over the web, should I jump on the "e" bandwagon and call this "ebullying?" Nay, let's just stick with "cyberbullying."The first I can recall hearing of cyberbullying was the story of Megan Meier of Missouri. You remember this one, the one in which it was discovered to

Leopard Caddy for Two More Days!

2010-03-29T23:51:00.005-06:00

It's March 30th folks and that means you've got today and tomorrow, Wednesday the 31st, left to get the ultra handy BeautiControl Caddy in leopard print! Pockets on the outside range in size from large, which will hold up to two large tubes of hand and/or foot cream, to thinner pockets great for your makeup brushes, mascara, etc.The 31st is also the end of our 15% Prep, Prime & Perfect Sale.

Odd But Better Than Alternative

2010-03-22T19:08:00.009-06:00

The 22nd day of March is not only my birthday but also the 22nd day I've been off of all medication (with the exception of the usual heachache or tummy "I ate too much crap" Pepto liquid).All done with the antibiotics and no head meds. Finally got in to my new psychiatrist at the beginning of the month and he agreed w/ my primary doc that the Lithium just wasn't a good idea any more. While it's

Keep it all organised in style!

2010-03-13T21:05:00.006-07:00

It's bad enough that March can be obscenely windy which naturally wrecks havoc on our hair, clothes, etc. but to have your bathroom or bedroom makeup and skincare items all disorganised, that's just not a great way to start the day.Are you looking for a way to help start your day off better and keep your skin gorgeous?This month only, BeautiControl is offering a very cool leopard print On-the-Go

A New Rant for a New Day

2010-03-06T18:48:00.003-07:00

It's been a while since I ranted here on my very own little public space here in the great world wide web I do believe I'm overdue.When you say to the box at a drive-up window for a sandwich shop, "I would like the Large Turkey combo meal" and the person rattles back, "you mean the $8 priced one?" and I say, "Yes, if that's the Large Turkey COMBO MEAL one." Then I get to the window and they

It's Approaching

2010-03-01T21:52:00.007-07:00

In 21 days I'll be hitting that big 4-0 mark. The one we hear all about as we're growing-up, the one where as children we look up at our elders and think, "gawwwd they're oooolllld" and the one were we got to watch others receive the much anticipated "Over the Hill" birthday cards.I'm here to tell you that all of the talk, the taunts, the fears, etc. that we witnessed or heard about...none of

Deserving?? of Health Care?

2010-02-26T09:30:00.005-07:00

If your off fighting in Iraq or Afghanistan you deserve health care. The rest of us Americans apparently do nothing to warrant "the same level of health care" as military folks get. Nor do we "need the same things that the soldiers need." Or so says Bill Kristol, editor of the Weekly Standard in response to Jon Stewart's inquiry about the Public Option part of President Obama's health care

Playing the Hunt and Peck Game Again

2010-02-15T23:03:00.002-07:00

Had my first physical therapy appointment today and as usual, the therapist didn't have all my medical records. You'd think that since all my treatment thus far has been thru the Univ. of NM that everything would be "right there" i.e. on the computer system. And I couldn't remember the name of the current antibiotic that I'm on, which is Clindamycin. All I could tell her was it started with a C

Small Victory Days

2010-02-12T00:24:00.010-07:00

2010 hasn't exactly gone the way I had planned out in my head when New Year's Day arrived. I can say with all honesty that being semi-crippled with a skin infection was NOT on my list of New Year's goals. I've not been able to spend much time shooting. My home is a vile disaster and should be declared a lost cause. My mental state is disheveled .This past week I was seriously in a bad place.

Game Eludes Me

2010-02-07T13:14:00.003-07:00

When many of my friends told me, back in December, that it had taken them weeks, if not months, to recover from pneumonia I arrogantly thought, "nay, that won't be me. I don't stay sick for more than a week, not even w/ bronchitis did it last past 2 weeks." And in two weeks my body cleared out the infection, just as WebMD said most got rid of it. Unfortunately the damage had been done, damage

Not the Way to Treat People

2010-02-02T07:59:00.005-07:00

Letter (or rather email) to the New Mexico Department of Workforce Solutions:February 02, 2010Dear Sir or Madam, I realise that the New Mexico Unemployment/Dept. of Workforce phone lines are overwhelmed due to the high unemployment rate in New Mexico and that the phone representatives are pressed for time to answer each claimants questions and concerns with speed and due diligence but that

Goodbye 2009 - part 1

2009-12-28T11:56:00.004-07:00

Despite there being still a few days left to this obscenely absurd year, I stumbled upon a song I'd not heard in quite some time and felt it spoke very eloquently how I'm feeling now and about the year 2009.The Alan Parsons Project - Old And WiseAs far as my eyes can seeThere are Shadows approaching meAnd to those I left behindI wanted you to KnowYou've always shared my deepest thoughtsYou follow

Just What the Doc Ordered

2009-12-24T01:16:00.004-07:00

A very huge thanks to my friend Vance who posted this video on his Facebook page. I've never heard of these guys nor the song but now I can't get it out of my head!!Definitely is helping me shake the dulldrums.

Sums It Up

2009-12-22T19:46:00.005-07:00

The Grumpies have settled in. Tired of having no energy, tired of not being able to watch something lighthearted comedy on the tube because I'll start laughing which leads to painful coughing. Tired of making it out into the world for a mere 2 hrs and coming home exhausted. I inadvertedly tuned in to Jon Stewart last night and ended up killing my lungs. Then Shaun of the Dead came on and since

Will This Year Just End?!!

2009-12-19T15:21:00.003-07:00

I've had it. 2009 needs to be done with. Kicked to the curb, tied-up and thrown into the lagoon, blasted off into space and I mean just IN TO space, no oxygen, no suit, no rocket. Normally I'm not real keen on the idea of speeding up time, being as it's already passing me by but I'll take an exception to this year. So who do I need to talk to about this? NASA? NIST? GMT?I'd suggest we boycott

What is Wrong with this Picture??

2009-11-06T07:00:00.013-07:00

LADIES & GENTLEMEN, I would like to direct your attention to the information that follows below. If you are easily prone to anger, then I suggest you not be reading this while at work, amongst children, clergy who take their vows oh so seriously and/or anyone else that you do not want to hear your outburst.Jobless rate tops 10 pct. for first time since '83."The jobless rate rocketed to 10.2

Let the Fun Begin

2009-10-30T01:30:00.009-06:00

"Someone... call the doctorGot a case of love bi-polarStuck on a... roller coasterCan't get of this ride." "Hot & Cold" Katy PerryWhile the physical ride is truly over with, the emotional funhouse has

Love and Loss

2009-10-18T23:09:00.001-06:00

Perhaps one of the hardest lessons I have struggled with is the concept of "letting go." I want to be there for the person, I want to lend a hand, a shoulder. Unfortunately all too often either I end up turning into a mom-of-sorts or the individual perceives my intentions as such.One time to know that it's realone time to know how it feels that's allOne call - your voice on the phoneone place -

It's the Small Moments

2009-10-16T22:33:00.004-06:00

As the years go by the saying "Laughter's the Best Medicine" continues to become ever so important in my life. It's been a trying year, to say the least. Lots of potholes intermixed with fields of sunny fragrant flowers.And so for those times when the potholes have felt bigger than the field, I truly cherish the moments of laughter that pop-up intermidtently. Here are just a few conversations

Goodnight & May You Find Peace

2009-09-04T00:36:00.000-06:00

9 hours from now, give or take a few minutes, I will be walking into the door of French's Mortuary for the 2nd time in my life. I came to the realisation this past weekend that a good portion of all the people I have known in my life who have died, they all died far too young, died by their own hands or doing, were killed or died from a disease they could of staved off had they made the effort.

When It Changes

2009-08-21T22:19:00.012-06:00

Relationships change, either evolving or just going down the crapper, but they change and it's up to us to pay attention to those changes. We must acknowledge them or we run the risk of getting stuck in the muck. This year has been one of the most interesting and fun years for relationships that I've had since I fluttered off to college in 1988. Never in a gazillion years would I have imagined

Nose Dive

2009-07-30T04:31:00.016-06:00

It's four in the morning and your cat is howling AT you, leading you toward the door to go outside. Whatya do?Well, you've got two normal operating options for the most part. #1-you don't let the feline beast out because you've never let the feline beast out into the cold cruel world. or #2-which is you let the feline beast out because that's what you've always done.Ok, so as I said that's

Whirlwind Two Days

2009-07-05T23:50:00.016-06:00

The past week & 1/2 has been fairly hectic, dealing with my belovedly expensive printer going kaput on me in the midst of trying to get ready for two art shows in addition to simply dealing with the normal life issues.Come Friday I was wiped-out. I had told myself that I would use Friday day to take care of all the household chores that had been ignored for the past week; laundry, dishes,

Summer of Growth

2009-07-02T04:43:00.015-06:00

When I was a kid or better put, when I was a pre-30-something-year-old I recall having the requisite gasp whenever our elders talked about being "older." As in, in their 30's older cause we all know that by 30 we might as well as had one foot in the grave. But other than this typical childlike fear I can't say I truly recall what it is I thought this part of my life would be like, emotionally

Pain, Pleasure and Sleep

2009-04-17T22:49:00.026-06:00

Years of thinking about it but never quite having the nerve to follow thru. Well I finally got up the courage, got some recommendations, wrangled a friend to accompany me and off we went this week.Both ears, upper/outer area. Surprisingly enough the pain wasn't as bad as I had anticipated. Most people I had talked to had said that getting the cartilage area pierced would hurt like a

The 9's of Our Life

2009-04-05T22:12:00.021-06:00

9, 19, 29, 39Years of our lives that all denote the tail-end of a era and the slow skittish opening to a new decade. The first two 9's for me were fairly good one's, that I can recall. For my 19th celebration I decided to reproduce one of my much younger birthdays by dunking my face into my birthday cake. Why I choose to do this, honestly I can't remember but I'm sure it had something to do

King of Tax Cuts = Pain for Everyone Else

2009-03-13T18:37:00.024-06:00

Just got this info from MoveOn.org. Oh sure, people can insist that therefore it's biased in favour of Obama, in favour of the "liberals." Whatever, these are facts, plain & simple.Do you know what tax rate the wealthiest Americans paid on the top portion of their earnings at the end of Ronald Reagan's first term? 50%. Under Richard Nixon? 70%.Under Dwight Eisenhower? 91% And for all the

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2009-03-04T22:33:00.007-07:00

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It's No Fun If Someone Doesn't Get Hurt

2009-02-28T00:05:00.027-07:00

After much hmmming and haawwwing I decided to take a mini-vacation and get out of town. It needed to be somewhere inexpensive, i.e. not too far a drive and where I could stay with friends.So off to Silver City, NM I went to visit my friends Kyle and Josh whom I hadn't seen since 2004. I met Kyle in 1995, I think anyway, at ASC when he graduated with his MA. I truly don't recall the specifics

Perspective of a 38-year old

2009-02-22T00:12:00.024-07:00

It's not often that I pay to see movies that are primarily aimed at the teenage to young adult category but when it involves vampires, well... there's just not much that's going to stop me. To say I'm fascinated by the mythology of vampires is to put it mildly.So there I was on Valentines Day sitting in a packed movie theatre for the showing of "Twilight." Admittedly I'd underestimated the

Fighting for My Fair Share

2009-02-06T01:07:00.009-07:00

I grew up in a fairly socially conservative family; military Spanish-Catholic. My dad despised "those hippies," calling them deadbeats, bums, etc. People on welfare were only interested in staying on welfare, taking money from the government. My mom simply just didn't have a clue about most of the outside world and so she went along with whatever others told her.In August 1994 I got married and

It's a Good Step

2009-01-29T15:58:00.007-07:00

Today, President Obama....dang I like saying that! ...signed his first law in support not just of women but for all Americans and by this I mean this law tells everyone that women deserve to be paid the same as men and perhaps, just perhaps, this will teach those boys who will grow into men to treat women fairly."It is fitting that with the very first bill I sign ... we are upholding one of this

Honeymoon Over

2009-01-27T23:26:00.005-07:00

The first week after you've lost your job is sort of an Alice in Wonderland feeling. Shock, awe, anger wash over you in overlapping waves. New or old people come out of the woodwork. Then by the 2nd week the euphoria of not having to go back to a job that you probably hated or simply the thrill of having time to do all that you've wanted to do switches to the sting of reality when you realise

2009-01-17T11:48:00.003-07:00

Albuquerque Inagural BallA New Day BeginsTuesday, January 20, 2009 at 7:00pmEl Rey Theatre620 Central Ave SWAlbuquerque, NM505-242-2343This event is open to all, under 21 MUST have parent present as liquor will be available. Music by Le Chat Lunatique and The Rebbe's Orkestra. Doors will open at 6:45 PM.Admission $5-10 (sliding, pay what you can afford) at the door. Light refreshments. All

It's Happening

2009-01-12T22:17:00.005-07:00

The first week of no work. Sunday night I kept having momentary mental spasms as I'd think "Oh I don't have work tomorrow." This then would send a weird forlorn shiver thru my body at the same time I'd feel a slight moment of relaxation that yes indeed I did not have to go back to that stupid ass place.It's the teeter-totter effect in which one minute you're up and the next minute or second,

4th Time's a Charm....right?

2009-01-07T10:22:00.001-07:00

Irony and intuition are funny things and not funny in a HaHaHa sort of way.Over the weekend I had found the two boxes of crap that I had packed-up hastily when I was relocated last March at the Journal. I couldn't take 90% of the stuff to my new position because there would be no desk, only counter space. So the stuff apparently got tossed into my storage closet awaiting the day I'd love 'em

Tuesday Musings

2009-01-06T16:03:00.011-07:00

I have an annual beginning of the year tradition. One of those traditions that just became a tradition cause after a few years of noticing that for reasons unknown and still unknown, I'd find myself doing IT around the beginning of the year.Phrases. Every year around January or February I start noticing that I'm saying a particular phrase more often than normal. And again I have no explanation

Decision 2009

2009-01-02T12:20:00.006-07:00

I'm not one to take much stock in the standard New Years resolutions that society likes to shout about at the top of their lungs. "LOOSE WEIGHT!" "BE A BETTER PERSON!" "MAKE LOTS OF MONEY!" and blah blah blah.... And I'm also not much for making them prior to the start of the New Year because the way I look at it, the old year isn't over yet and who the hell will know what will happen between

Home

2009-01-02T00:11:00.014-07:00

Every place I've ever lived I have always tried to make sure to document it. For me. For friends who sometimes ask what my little piece of home looks like. There are probably some addresses that didn't get documented for one reason or another and honestly, I don't have a count off the top of my head just how many places this gal has lived. Easily close to 2 dozen I'm sure. So to start the

Feels Good

2008-12-17T14:40:00.003-07:00

Plain and simple. I feel good. Except that my stomach has been in upheaval for like the past 2 days...not sure what the fuck is going on there. So I've eaten very little in the past 20hrs, trying to clean out. But enough of that cause I prefer to dwell more on the fun that I have had in the past week. I saw Razek last night and am finding his company more enjoyable with each time we spend

That Thing Called Trust

2008-12-13T19:40:00.005-07:00

I've not dated a lot of men in my life. I can count how many on one hand...yeah, it's been that many. And since my divorce, well a big whoppin' one fella and while that was a good lesson for me and introduced some valuable networking avenues into my life, lets just say the guy was ohhh so NOT right for me. Then I've had some...umm...intriguingly pathetic offers (i.e. married men saying their

Yes Animals Do Have Feelings

2008-12-04T19:02:00.006-07:00

To all those who are convinced that animals do not feel, that they do not operate on anything but instinct, EXPLAIN THIS TO ME:This video version, the best I could find, is in Spanish but they have a circle following the pup as it scrambles across the highway. I will warn you that there is a moment of horror, at least in my opinion, so just to warn you as you watch.

Anybody Seen My Camel?

2008-12-03T16:16:00.004-07:00

.. and make that my elephant and tigers and bears, oh my!Camels found wandering in Juarez (AP Photo/ El Diario de Juarez/David Cruz)CIUDAD JUAREZ, Mexico (AP) — It may have seemed like a mirage: Two camels nibbling on a pine tree along a street in this desert metropolis on the Texas border. Police tried lassoing the animals, which lunged at the officers with snapping teeth as onlookers

And I Quote....

2008-11-18T12:24:00.007-07:00

Now don't cheat and read down before answering this question: What is your initial thought as you read this quote; "It would be unwise for him to travel, given what's he's got now," lawyer Robert Englehart said, declining to elaborate "for the obvious reasons."Me thinks the bloke needs a new lawyer! "What he's got NOW??" What did he

To My Friends

2008-11-06T00:44:00.006-07:00

Now that it's been 24+ hrs since Barack Obama became our new president I thought I'd take a moment to let you all know how very proud I am to count you as a friend.My friends are smart and logical and give a damn about their world and that's why I know you did what you could to help change the course of the American future. Whether it was merely voicing your opinion with a bumper sticker on your

Finally Able to Accept

2008-11-04T23:48:00.007-07:00

that when I wake in the morning, Barack Obama will indeed be our new president.For about 2 hours after John McCain gave his concession speech. Even after I saw the numbers at 9:45 p.m. MST: 330 Electoral votes for Obama. I still found myself afraid, terrified, unwilling I suppose, to allow myself to believe, to feel joy and relief.I feared of waking-up to learn that all the precincts had come

Brother's Keeper

2008-10-29T21:08:00.020-06:00

On Saturday, Oct. 25th I attended my first political rally when Barack Obama came to Albuquerque. Held at Johnson Field on the Univ. of New Mexico campus, it's estimated that over 40,000 people attended. I'm not even sure how to explain what I witnessed and felt for the 4 hours I was there. I saw pretty much every microcosm of society one can imagine. Native Americans, African Americans,

How Intolerance is Spread

2008-10-22T23:41:00.003-06:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

2008-10-20T09:00:00.005-06:00

Viggo Mortensen is 50 years old today!! 20th October 1958May all the men I love in my life be as damn fine goodlooking as this man when they hit 50!

No Need to Say More

2008-10-16T22:47:00.003-06:00

PLEASE VOTE ON NOVEMBER 4TH!!!

Will Someone Please Get the Man a Dictionary

2008-10-01T08:39:00.009-06:00

VITAL:-- a: existing as a manifestation of life. b: concerned with or necessary to the maintenance of life -- fundamentally concerned with or affecting life or living beings: as (1): tending to renew or refresh the living : invigorating ESSENTIAL:-- of the utmost importance John McCain, US Republican candidate for president, was on NPR this morning speaking with reporter Steve

It's VIGGO Time!!

2008-09-29T22:26:00.011-06:00

Westerns. They have to be something special and different for me to watch, whether it be on TV or at the theatre. My father loved Western's, always reading those Louis Lamour paperbacks. As a kid I can recall thinking, "why on earth would I want to read about dust and guns and rattlesnakes when I already live in the desert?"There's only ever been two Westerns that I truly loved. The first one

VOTE!!!

2008-09-19T18:28:00.003-06:00

this takes--literally--5 seconds...Repubs are having people vote that Palin is qualified…Here is a small thing you can do in two clicks – SECONDS! Check thisout please and fast.PBS.com has a poll that asks: Is Sarah Palin qualified to be VP?You don't have to give your name or email address in order to vote.It's very simple.Here's the link: http://www.pbs.org/now/polls/poll-435.htmlJust click &

White Priviledge

2008-09-17T09:36:00.004-06:00

From: Author Tim Wise's ZSpaceFor those who still can't grasp the concept of white privilege, or who are constantly looking for some easy-to-understand examples of it, perhaps this list will help.White privilege is when you can get pregnant at seventeen like Bristol Palin and everyone is quick to insist that your life and that of your family is a personal matter, and that no one has a right to

I'm a Socialist. So Get Over It!

2008-09-16T21:44:00.005-06:00

American's are spoiled brats and have been since the early days. We think that we DESERVE to own a car, we DESERVE to have a TV not just in the house but in EVERY room. We think our kids HAVE TO have an iPod, a camera MP3 cell phone, an iPhone, the latest Nike shoes. Instead of teaching our children that cars are a LUXURY and a RESPONSIBILITY and that just cause you have an iPod doesn't make

So Much for Respect

2008-09-11T11:46:00.004-06:00

As some know, I work for the local main newspaper. Not the biggest highlight of my life to say the least but it's a job. My position has me stuck dealing with the immediate public as they come into the building and so I'm bombarded with the TV that is constantly on CNN throughout the work day, customers angry with the delivery of their paper, kids running around while their parents act like their

Blog Switcheroo

2008-09-08T16:45:00.000-06:00

I've decided that I need to change my blogs around a bit and it's going to take me a bit longer than a day or so to do what is going to amount to some major construction, so please bear with me as changes begin to take place.For some time now I've been trying to figure out what blog site or set-up would be best to have a dedicated "photo blog." I've tried the community PhotoBlog.com and have

Damnit! I Work During the Day!!

2008-09-08T12:29:00.006-06:00

One of my biggest gripes about American business & government...I say American cause I haven't a clue how this issue is dealt with in other countries...is that despite the fact that most Americans work during the daytime hours, i.e. 8am-5pm, businesses and governments have yet to change their operations so as to SERVE the American people.#1 case in point: banks. While it's true that banking

This is What Happens....

2008-09-02T16:04:00.010-06:00

when you're truly not bored and yet you must be if you find yourself blogging about all the silly e-mail subject line's one gets in their Spam folder.I was about to clear out my Google SPAM box and wanted to make sure nothin' of importance was in there so which naturally means I have to scan the sub. headings. And what do my wandering eyes lay upon? Oh such beauties as:"Swing a larger club today

What I Want

2008-08-19T20:20:00.001-06:00

A Little Less Conversation - Elvis Presley Baby close your eyes and listen to the musicDrifting through a summer breezeIts a groovy night and I can show you how to use itCome along with me and put your mind at easeA little less conversation, a little more action pleaseForever In Blue Jeans - Neil DiamondMoney talksBut it don't sing and danceAnd it don't talkAs long as I can have you here with

The Creation of Loneliness

2008-08-17T22:47:00.007-06:00

When my marriage imploded back in '03, I knew I needed some time alone to figure out who the fuck I was. Never having lived alone, on my own with no one else in the same space, I needed that space, that silence to finally face myself. And having the ex jump from our bed into her bed so damn rapidly only solidified in my mind that I was doing the right thing, that I knew the best way to deal

The Process of Anxiety

2008-08-05T22:50:00.002-06:00

It used to be that my anxiety attacks occurred prior to the event, not a week or two weeks afterwards. Is this just another one of those "your body changing with age" things? Cause if it is, I don't like it. Much easier to deal with and take the precautionary drugs when I know that the heart racing and body aching and trembling is going to occur probably within a day or two of said event.

Strike Two!

2008-08-03T10:46:00.000-06:00

For the past year and a 1/2 the man and his minions have been promising us CHANGE. His presidency will be about CHANGE! His presidency will NOT be the same old presidency.And for the past year and a 1/2 I've been warning people that change is all good and well but if you've got zippo experience behind that change, if the people advising you know more than you because...well..you're

Further Alienation

2008-08-01T23:14:00.001-06:00

I, like many folks who supported Hillary Clinton, have had a hard time getting behind Barack Obama's bid for the presidency. I'm all for change, as the Obama campaign seems to be stuck on, but it helps to have the experience to initiate that change and I just haven't seen it in Obama yet.I was slowly starting to come around to liking the guy, being as I don't have much of choice now. I'm still

20 Years of Perspectives

2008-07-17T01:32:00.000-06:00

"'Cause everybody hurts. Take comfort in your friendsEverybody hurts. Don't throw your hand. Oh, no. Don't throw your handIf you feel like you're alone, no, no, no, you are not alone"As I drove away from the picnic area and a group of people I hadn't seen in 20 years, REM played on the radio. And as I begin to enter I-25 and left Belen behind, Simply Red came on. "Chance for me to escape from

As the Weekend Gets Closer

2008-07-09T00:34:00.010-06:00

Darhla and I doing the mall crawl thing in 1988....I'm getting more anxious and whigged out...and exhausted. For the past few days I've been going thru two photo albums looking for anything related to life of a Belen New Mexico school system student.Tonight, while scanning in photos (you see, these are prints from my old 110 Kodak camera...one of these days I hope to get those teeny tiny

20 years??? Really??

2008-07-04T19:50:00.000-06:00

In all reality it's now been 20 years, 1 month and one week since I graduated from Belen High School. yikes. A lot has changed in that little town south of Albququerque and a lot has not.When I first received the invite last November I really wasn't sure if I was going to attend. Over the past 6+ months I've wavered; yea, nay, yea, nay....I'd of plucked all the daisy petals in the world by now

Overwhelmed...Officially

2008-06-17T21:27:00.007-06:00

I should be used to this feeling by this point in my life. That feeling of "blaahhh don't wanna do that but I should..." the realization that you're spending a gazillion hours rereading the same thing or going back to the same web site over and over....the locking up of your brain as you try to hard to focus.....the panic in your heart as you try to work on a project that has been plaguing

I Heard the Seals Last Night

2008-05-24T22:13:00.001-06:00

I now live within 3 blocks of the Albuquerque city zoo, or rather officially called The Rio Grande Zoo and a part of the collective organization known as The Albq. Biological Park. The Rio Grande River being the life-blood river of the Southwest and especially Nuevo Mexico, the 47th state of the grand ole' U.S. Yes my dear readers, don't go listening to the clueless who will insist that in

2008-05-12T23:13:00.006-06:00

The last time I had an actual honest-to-goodness gallery showing was in Denver at Core New Art Space in February 2005, one month before I moved down here.Since being in Querqueville, I've shown and sold my art at a variety of places/events; coffee shops, Tijeras Art Market, Factory on 5th, etc. etc. but no gallery showings.Well finally I've put a stopper in that stupid little trend, for this

Doing My Part

2008-05-05T22:27:00.001-06:00

Having a shop on Etsy is a lot of work and while it hasn't been financially rewarding yet, it has been great in developing new friendships and helping me with the business end of this craziness.About six months into my membership I started looking more seriously at the various Street Teams, to see how they might help me in promoting my photography. At first I was hoping to find something

One More Dream Realized

2008-04-24T22:58:00.004-06:00

I finally did it. I'm fostering an elephant! Kenze is his name and he was born in December of 2004.His name comes from the village in Kenya that he was found wandering near after having lost his mother.Looking thru the photo gallery I came upon one of Shimba rolling in the dirt and immediately I looked over at Miss Curio sprawled out on the chair and said to her, "Hey Curio, maybe you were once

She's Here and He's Gone

2008-04-23T22:54:00.006-06:00

Today at 11:10 a.m. as I was driving to work (I had a doc's apt. in the morning & had to get x-rays...will talk about that at a later time), Darhla was at the hospital giving birth to Virginia Anna Lise Gilson. Never occurred to me to ask all those standard ??'s of weight, exact time, length, etc. Not that that sort of stuff ever really mattered much to me, although the time of birth does in

A New Something

2008-04-20T22:29:00.003-06:00

Okedokey, if you all will take a looksie over to yer right at the right-hand column and scroll down just a teensy bit, just below the "Fellow Artist" links.This will be a spot for me to showcase fellow artists, folks whom I'm honored to know and whom I admire. So won't you please take a moment to view their art! This area shall continue to grow as I add more artists so don't forget to look to

They Take Away & They Give Back

2008-04-17T23:28:00.010-06:00

First it was Victoria's father. Diagnosed with leukemia in February. Then earlier this month I heard from Dave and his dad is in a hospital in Pueblo, Colorado with cancer; lungs, lymph nodes, pancreas. And now, as I was adding new people's blogs to my links section here, I visit Paula's page and the top entry is about her dad dying on Sunday from a heart attack.I thought this whole "deaths in

Moron #2 for April

2008-04-17T09:10:00.001-06:00

Being the staunch socialist and liberal that I like to call myself, the following Moron #2 Award will probably come as a shock to all....hell it came as a shock to me and I'm the one that thought it up.CNN.Yep, ya read correctly. CNN the TV news station. For the past day and 1/2 all that's been broadcast is Pope Benedict and his historic entrance to the good ole' US of A. Oh look there's him in

Watching Her Grow

2008-04-17T00:30:00.005-06:00

On Saturday, April 5th I hosted my first baby shower. I wish that more people could of attended but at the same time, the 6 that did come was enough for me to handle. Thankfully Miriam brought tons of scrapbooking material to keep everyone occupied. And it helped that I live just five blocks from the Flying Star Cafe where I ended-up having the shower. My apartment is too small to host such

Moron #1 for April

2008-04-08T11:48:00.001-06:00

At first I was going to title this Moron's of the Month but it's still early into April and I didn't think it was fair to lump all of April in with one situation. Yet, at the same time, there'll be plenty more morons to talk about as the days go by. hmm...maybe if I were to label it Morons of the Week? eeeehhhh, but then I'd have to keep the articles for the whole week, compile a list, remember

Memory of Running

2008-04-07T15:16:00.007-06:00

I bought the book last spring of '07, along with the Elemental Encyclopedia of Birthdays. Since the encyclopedia is just another reference book, it's not something I have to actually start reading and continue reading. The Memory of Running by Ron McLarty required actual reading, something I truly don't do enough of. Oh sure I read constantly; newspapers, magazines. Easy condensed reading.