I should be used to this feeling by this point in my life.
That feeling of "blaahhh don't wanna do that but I should..." the realization that you're spending a gazillion hours rereading the same thing or going back to the same web site over and over....the locking up of your brain as you try to hard to focus.....the panic in your heart as you try to work on a project that has been plaguing you.
Overload. Yep. That's where I'm at right now. I have a million and one things I want to talk about, a gazillion things I need to accomplish and too damn many events coming up in the near future that are only going to add to the list of projects already staring all beady eyed at me.
So here I am and I'm going to write out my list of things that need to be worked on, need to be working on, the stuff coming up, the stuff already gone by and whatever else I feel like rattling about.....all in an excellent attempt to forestall everything that is overwhelming me.
1) Editing photos from Pam's wedding from *gasp* now almost 2 weeks ago
2) Editing photos from my vacation to CO to go to Pam's wedding that was nearly 2 weeks ago
3) Editing photos from Pride parade in Albuquerque last Saturday
4) Editing photos from Darhla's new baby & new house warming party on Saturday
5) Dinner with Deb this coming Thursday eve.
6) Party at Jake's this comin
g Saturday where I'm sure I'll be snapping my little merry heart away
7) A date on Saturday...well really just lunch but being as the guy actually officially asked me out I suppose we'll go ahead and call it a date for hell's sake.
8) Eye exam Saturday morning and hopefully picking out new glasses...unfortunately I get to pay for the exam cause....well it's a long boring story, let's just chalk it up to Susan being an idiot.
9) Movie on Sunday with Amy and others
10) Overdue on my Internet bill but can't afford to pay it cause I lost a whole fucking week due to being sick with bronchitis...AGAIN!
11) I'm beginning to think I may be developing asthma but can't afford to take the time off to go see a doctor right now and besides I haven't got the $40 copay for a specialist!
12) Student loan idiots say they mailed me a specific form to fill out cause they say Dave and I aren't eligible anymore for deferrment or forebearance...shit I don't know it's one of those. So they're trying to say we're in default even though we sent in the papers but now I have to send in new papers which means sending my filled out forms to Dave, him sending the whole enchilada to the morons and then sending the whole enchilada back to me.
13) Fast Heart Mart is back in town and I love these kids so I'll be going to see them on the 5th of July and shooting till the wolves stop howling.
14) July 11th-13th is my 20th high school reunion shindig....and I'm actually going. It's one of those feelings of utter dread mixed with sheer excitement. Yeah....I'm insane.
oh and last but not least, I still have to go work for 9 freakin' hours 5 days a week. *sad sigh*
"Fuente de Energia" Estopa
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Overwhelmed...Officially
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2 responses:
Oh Susan, I feel ya on that one. I started keeping a notepad by my bed so I could write down everything I know I have to do so worrying about it doesn't keep me awake. Doesn't necessary mean things are getting done, but at least I have a list and I'm not forgetting things.
Oh I long for the day when I can quit my day job and have time for the rest of my work. :)
I like to joke that I don't have time to work, i.e. a 9-5 job!!
Thanks for remind me....I have these little tiny Mayan yarn dolls, 7 of 'em, called Worry Dolls in which I'm allowed 7 worries, one for each doll and then they go into their little ceramic pot to take on my worry for the night....I need to find those critters and get 'em back by my bed.
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